OK, it's been a few days, and I actually have something on my mind...

The house I am in is a 5 bedroom house, it has plenty of space, a decent kitchen, washer and dryer and is in a nice neighborhood. Sounds great right? Well it does to me. However, the roomates have sided that, despite how great the house is, they're done with it. NNN and Sarah want to get a place on their own, and Nik, since he never moved up, is eager to stop paying rent ASAP. That leaves Matt and I. There's no way we can afford to keep this house by ourselves, neither of us is comfortable with the idea of living with complete strangers and the only 3 people I know of that need another place to live next year would be Kelly and her two roomates Doug and Steve. Easy solution would be to have those three move in, however, Kelly and Steve don't drive, thus they must live in Arcata, as close to campus as possible. This means there will be no more Harris Ranch.

Another option has surfaced in all this, Matt and I can move into Kelly's house and fill the two rooms that will be opening up this summer. It sounds nice, but there are a few concerns. Number one being, their house isn't all that great. There's no garbage disposal, no washer or dryer, no backyard, no garage and they have a major ant infestation problem. Another problem, I haven't talked with Matt yet about his ideas/ preferences, so the few talks I've had with Kelly about us moving in have been strictly hypothetical, and I don't believe she has mentioned it to Steve or Doug. I'm also not quite sure that I am fully ready to move in with Kelly yet. We've been going out since July 4, and everything is great, but I mean, it's a BIG step. Plus, going to see her is one of my escapes, which was part of the reason I never wanted to kill any of my current roomates. Now that escape would be gone, and I guess I'm afraid of smothering.

Over the summer I watched a couple move up here from San Diego. They had never lived together before this and within a month and half were split up. They both had to move out and it was a big ugly mess. I don't think such a thing would quite happen in my situation, but it is looming in the back of my mind, "what if...". I couldn't imagine how horrible it would be if that happened and I had to leave the house, or worse yet had to stay there. Grrrr. This sucks. So much crap to think about. It is a few months away, but it is totally something I need to think about. Really need to sit down with Matt and get shit straight with him and see what his feelings are.